Let's talk about food, strength, journeys, etc. That quote I posted last time has really stuck with me, that there is no right or wrong way to do this. Some choices make us more alive or less alive, but they are our choices to make and our consequences to take. And the CRAZY thing is that they are different for each of us. Even the rigid intersection of calories and nutrition is insanely individual to each person. So, what is right for me? I am still figuring that out. And I am not going to divulge my whole philosophy even when I do, because I reserve the right to be utterly wrong and to change my mind at any given time as new information becomes available. Having a life plan with no give is like wearing jeans made out of concrete.
AR update: It works! I love this program. So much of "healthifying" my eating habits has centered on getting my head straight. I am proud to report that the panicked desperation I would sometimes feel when faced with something delicious has all but disappeared. It was a weird sensation of greed, fear, guilt and need which dampened the pleasure of eating while compelling me to eat more and more and more. Finally, I am seeing food as food. (Confession: this month I did use three strawberry/cream cheese cupcakes and two shirley temples in front of the new version of "Sabrina" to remedy one emotional crisis. And I had a crazy pregnant moment where I drank pickle juice right out of the jar. I know, that is so gross, but at the moment it was so very good.) So, I'm not perfect at it, but despite these moments I am feeling stronger and saner when it comes to food than I have in years.
Great Tip: I am enjoying dessert flavored gum. It cuts my need for sweetness and for chewing. Skip the orange creamcicle flavor. The strawberry shortcake and key lime pie are much better.
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